Thanksgiving Year Two

Hello folks and a very Happy Thanksgiving to you all! I just realized that I have not blogged in over a month. Not gonna lie, this whole year two thing is TOUGH! Last year I skipped Thanksgiving altogether. Just left town and went to the lake. And I had zero regrets.

This year I am ready to face the holidays head on. The fog has lifted and the finality has taken its place. My goal is to find joy in the life I am living every day. My anger at God has faded some, but I'll never, ever understand. Last year I couldn't feel thankful or grateful for anything. It was just brutal sadness.

So recently, I have discovered loneliness. I'm trying to associate the loneliness with the love. I miss just talking to him. I miss throwing my leg over him in bed. I miss him hanging over my shoulder in the kitchen, grabbing tastes and making inappropriate comments about my butt. LOL. I miss all of it. But I'm inching toward being able to be grateful.

I'm grateful I had forty years of ups and downs with a man who loved me. I'm grateful for my beautiful, smart, amazing daughters and all their offspring. I'm grateful for my sisters, my brother, my aunt, my cousins, and all my nieces and nephews. I'm ever grateful for my tribe of girlfriends. I'm grateful that I've had opportunities to travel and that I've found an amazing group of friends through my writing community.

Happy Thanksgiving, friends. Thank you for helping me along the way, on this journey which I don't wish for any of you.

As always, thanks for reading my blathering. Blessings!!