Happy Easter = New Beginnings

Today we celebrate the risen Christ! Easter is always a day of forgiveness, new hope, fresh starts. This particular Easter Sunday also happens to be the anniversary of my sweet man's exit from his earthly body.

April 9, 2022 will be forever etched into my mind. The days - actually weeks approaching this day have kept me off-kilter wondering how I might feel. What kind of horrible memories might rule my ever-changing emotional status. I've relived that morning, the phone call, the reality over and over the last few weeks.

I believe with my whole heart that there must be many people lifting me in prayer and positivity because today was good. A lovely day with my treasured family - my beautiful daughters and their families. The many text messages I received from my siblings, friends, aunt, cousins = I am overwhelmed. And I am okay. More than okay. I have survived the year of firsts. I miss Big Scott with my entire being, but my capacity to handle the pain of grief seems to have increased. I can do this. I am doing this.

Two beautiful eagles swooped around gracefully as we all sat outside and enjoyed the glorious day and the love we all share. I can never forget that I am blessed beyond measure. I was blessed with a beautiful marriage that was not always perfect. But the result of that marriage was a lifetime of experiences and memories which are molding me into the person who I am becoming. Those eagles filled me with calm. My Tall Man was flying high, watching over us today.

This final AFF was not the day I was anticipating. It's bittersweet and sad, but I am doing this. WE are doing this, all of these humans who share his blood. God is good. And I am pretty confident that He has been hanging out with Big Scott and that they sent us those eagles today.

Ahhhh, the anticipation of this day is over! Back to my business, my boutique job, and my novels! As always, thanks for reading and being part of my journey!