ALL OF A SUDDEN

All of a sudden, I can plan my day. I can run errands. I can step out of my comfort zone. I can let the tinies bit of joy seep into my being without being paralyzed by the fact that I am here and he is not.

All of a sudden, rainy, dark days are not my favorite days. My bed, under a mound of covers is no longer my favorite place.

All of a sudden, when the sun shines, I feel the warmth and can spread my arms in welcome. Hug the new day. Revel in my aliveness.

All of a sudden, I can cook for one and enjoy the fruits of my labor, solo.

All of a sudden, I can comprehend others’ sadness without being consumed by my own.

All of a sudden, I am aware of the future and am slowly winding my way out of the labyrinth that is my past.

All. Of. A. Sudden.